Kindness.

Kindness.

A word that can be so loaded. I believe that every person on the face of this earth, regardless of race, religion, sexual preference, etc., desires to feel kindness. Kindness and love. Warmth for another. Connectedness. To not be a alone.

How choices are made, lives changed, based on the loss or gift of kindness and love.

I feel a deep sadness in my heart and have for a while. I feel the pain of others so enormously. The tone of my brother's voice over the phone, calling from North Carolina, living on his own for the first time, the loneliness, the sadness from a recent loss in his life. The pain of watching a loved one struggle through a very difficult change in their life.

My own pain. From events and memories that I didn't realize were still holding me bound. Things that I thought were fading into the dust of history. I feel as if I am grieving. Grieving for what could have been. For the things lost. Needing to cry these things out. The tears to be a balm for old wounds.

I know this post is vague but it's something that I needed to get out.

Hope everyone has a happy weekend and I send you all love.

And kindness.

What Layla has Been up to Lately.

playing in a kitchen cabinet



giving me "the face"


dancing near the window.



my precious angel girl.

I never realized how much my heart could love.

Right now she's singing along to Disney's Mulan and dancing in her jammies.
My heart is full.

I know there's got to be a blue sky waiting for me.

Hello all :)

Monday official start of the week. A lot of things have been brewing and stewing around here lately. A lot of digging, and figuring out where I am headed on this path to living my passion and making it happen. I am in the beginning stages. Planning, brainstorming and researching. Making up a game plan. I set a goal for myself at the beginning of the year that I would be selling my creations, my crafts, by New Year 2012. And that plan is still in motion. I am doing some research and this week plan to get cracking and crank out a few items (that I entirely plan to take photos of and post on here) and prepare to be sold. A local antique store here, owned by a friend of my mothers' is letting me set up a shelf for my items to be sold locally, so I am super stoked! Once I get everything set up I will take some photos of the layout at the store so you guys can check it out.

My brother was home for the weekend, and although I wish that I had pictures to post, sometimes aren't you just happy experiencing the moment instead of being behind the lens recording it? I love documenting life moments, sure, but sometimes I just like to soak it all up right then and there.

We hung out and watched "Easy A" and "Mystery Science Theater 3000" (our favorite). We quote movies to each other all the time. It's almost like our secret language, because half the time no one knows what we are talking about. We'll be laughing, and spouting of hilarious lines from movies or shows and everyone else around us is like ...."uhhh......"
:)

I am sad he had to go back home today. Back to Charlotte NC. Back to work. Back to being on his way to becoming an awesome chef. I am so proud of him for going after his dream, and doing it all on his own. He's going after what he wants and making it happen.

I think I'll take a page from his book this week and set the wheels in motion on this "Dream Train".

Here goes nothin!