So many shifts already.
Breathe in, Breathe out.
Digging deep into the darkest corners.
Places that hurt. That have been long covered.
Places that in the digging have brought tears.
Tears of a pain that aches so bad at times I want to cry out in agony.
But after the pain.
The healing.
The salt from my tears washes clean those dark places.
Breaks them open to the light of TRUTH.
I am facing my shadows.
And I am scared out of my mind most of the time.
But I'm feeling the fear and doing it anyway.
I am feeling.
I am experiencing.
I am HEALING.
Moment to Moment.
I am.
I can feel her.
Moving, Speaking, Dancing, Laughing, Crying, Loving
THROUGH ME.
My tears turn into a battle cry.
Because that's where I am.
I am in a battle with FEAR.
The Unknown. The Lies. The perceptions.
My inner world is being shaken down and is being reflected outside of me.
I CAN FEEL IT.
It's hard and it hurts.
And it's GLORIOUS.
THE ENERGY IS MOVING.
Places that were stuck are starting to flow, like snow melting into streams.
AND I CAN SEE HER.
MY SOUL.
MY AUTHENTIC SELF.
AND SHE IS SO BRIGHT THAT SHE EXPLODES EVERYTHING AROUND HER INTO STARDUST.
And I know that I am going to be better than okay.
Better than fine.
I am going to step into exactly who I am.
I will always survive.
I will heal and tell my story.
My journey for all to hear.
I will help them remember.
Moment to Moment.
To never forget who they are.
Who they always have been.
Who I always have been.
