The Awakening. Beautiful things are in motion.

New things are brewing underneath.

I wonder if it's the waxing moon. I'll bet.

I have been peeking into the lives of two of my favorite bloggers that I have only come across within the last 6 months. Boho girl Denise over at http://bohophotography.blogspot.com, is just a beautiful, groovy, peaceful, earth mother Goddess wit her sweet beautiful son Cedar and awesome hubby Boho Boy :) She is an outstandingly beautiful photographer. Her photos of little moments with her family bring tears of beauty and joy to my eyes. If you haven't been fortunate enough to stumble upon her space just yet, take a little mosey (did I spell that right?) on over there and bring along a cup of your favorite yummy nectar and sit a spell. Bask in the glow of her wonderfulness. Another lady of great esteem to me, is Aura who through her writing and photography of her own life, has literally touched my soul. I have only recently unearthed her blog and am so grateful I have. She has written some of the most profound material I have EVER read. She is so humble and honest, open and in touch with her truth and light. Please go check her out if you get the chance at http://aurajoon.blogspot.com.

These ladies have truly peeled back some layers for me lately and I feel through reading through their thoughts and experiences that it has touched on something deep and flowing in my soul. A truth. An inner knowing.

Deep deep liquidy pools of consciousness and spiritual thought provoking as of late. Where I want to go in this life. Feeling an overwhelming sense of gratefulness at what I have been blessed with and so much that I want to experience. It's like in my mind's eye I see myself in an open natural space, a Navajo desert with cool crisp air or mountainside cliffs or at the precipice of an ocean with my arms outstretched, screaming my soul out to the world, wanting to experience this entire existence and all it's wonders.

I feel this sense of some thing's coming.

Something big. Changes.

They feel important. Strong.

But they feel happy and good.

I don't know what they will be or what they will mean for me, but I feel light all around me enveloping me. I feel in my body right now. I feel my soul glowing. And it feels wonderful.

An awakening has been set in motion.

These quotes from Aura's blog struck a chord with me and I just thought that I would share it.

"Over the last few months I've talked a lot about finding the "old me." A big part of that was re-learning to not be so vain, self centered, shallow, hungry for possessions, and full of anger towards a life I'd lost control of. One day I woke up and decided that I was going to find me, again." ( Aura quoted from http://aurajoon.blogspot.com)

I feel like I have been doing this in my own life as of late. Searching for myself again. Not trying to necessarily create myself but rediscover her.

I'll leave off on this second quote from Aura's blog. Beautiful, simple, and full of light. These two ladies are truly an inspiration and I just want to say to both Denise and Aura.

THANK YOU. You have been such a deep, soulful inspiration to me and continue to shine a light into my life through your sharings, of words and love of life. THANK YOU.

"To me, the meaning of life is to love. Share love, give love, feel love. Love your life, the people in it, the things you do, your job. Give the benefit of doubt. Love strangers, love everyone. Why not? "

Time is fleeting, but my love for you is forever.

11 months ago to the day.

1 more month exactly until it's been a year.

At this time on that day, i would've been resting in post labor exhaustion and blissed out brand new motherhood.

I have this sensation as of late, like i am trying to desperately hold onto a handful of water. futile i consciously know, but yet i grasp at the drops flowing through my fingers.

She grows each and everyday. ever changing. evolving into her own person. absorbing her surroundings, reacting in joy, sadness, frustration and awe.

Funny how it really seems as if at times you suddenly realize you are in the middle of massive body of water and the the smallest ripple, flows out and effects everything else. boundless.

I have this feeling like I cannot hold onto her.

Her baby moments.

Her newness to everything.

I already miss her.

And she isn't even gone.

I just know that it will all continue to forever change. She will grow up. She will fall down. She will get hurt. She will get back up and she will keep on playing. She will go to her first day of school. She will experience joys and fears. She will go on her first date. She will fall in love. She will have her heart broken. She will mend it. She will move forward. And on and on it will go.

If she knows nothing else but this, I will be happy.

That from the moment that the doctors placed you on my chest, the most beautiful thing I had ever laid eyes on, I have never been more in love. I have never felt more pure joy then seeing your precious face and hearing that sweet cry. From the first time your eyes met mine, to now hearing you say "Mama.." and hold out your hands expectantly for me to pick you up and hold you close.

I breathe you in every time I hold you, trying to commit your scent to memory. I wish I could freeze time and let us just stay here suspended. It's a bittersweet journey, to watch your baby grow bigger and change from moment to moment.

Bittersweet and Beautiful.

And I cherish, every. single. moment.