Today is my 24th birthday.
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My mother asked me this morning as Layla played on the mat with her toys, how it felt and if I felt different. At that moment, I couldn't quite tell because it was super early (Layla is an early bird), but now as I sit here at the end of the day contemplating many things, I realize I do feel different.
I have been struggling in the last few years to find my place in this world. My sense of self worth and purpose. For so long I felt like I had no direction. But so many things are starting to become clear. I am a wife. I am a mother. But these things are not all that I am. I am also a woman. A STRONG WOMAN. I have been through so much in the last several years and it has built me into this warrior that I didn't realize that lived inside me. Even in moments that I feel like I am breaking down, I feel this sense of inner strength like I am and will survive what ever comes. I believe that this comes from being a mother. The protectress. Everything changed when Layla was born. Life was about more than just me now. I feel like a lioness guarding her cub. I would protect her with my life.
It finally feels like so many things are coming full circle. Loose ends are starting to tie up and new experiences and opportunities are beginning to open up to me. For the longest time I have felt like I am standing on the edge of something...just waiting. And now I feel like I am finally running and jumping into the air, free falling into something that I know is going to be wonderful.
I read my horoscope tonight for kicks and come to find out tonight's moon is 100% full. A full moon on my birthday. Lots of good energy coming my way.
It's been a long time coming. I can feel the change. And it is beautiful.
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