I'm still here.
Been flowing in and out of this space, in and out of the ebb and flow of life.
Breathing deep and letting what is be what is.
I think I am going to refer to 2013 as my Year of Challenge.
Because that is what has been happening.
A challenge.
The gauntlet has been thrown down at my feet again and again.
Sometimes daily.
And life has asked me to rise up.
Rise up, and meet each challenge.
And I have had a choice to stand, and meet each one head on or run.
And there are days, when everything in me screams to RUN. To RETREAT.
To TAKE THE EASY ROAD.
But...then my Spirit, my Soul, my Inner Voice...
nudges me and says...."Rise...Rise my daughter."
"There is a well in you, deeper than you can fathom. A light so bright it SHATTERS the darkness. Remember who you are. And Rise. Meet the darkness. For when you do it will flee in the face of your BRILLIANCE.
And so each time I rise.
And sometimes, it's simply a quiet, "I will try again."
And other times, it's a ROAR from deep within the ancient recesses of my beginning.
A roar of "I AM!" claiming my presence.
And the fear is still there.
It's there, floating around me.
But we are no longer at war, fear and I.
Fear has been my teacher.
My guide.
My map through the forest of inauthenticity.
It has been what has shook me awake.
That this is not the time for being faint of heart.
Fear has been the call to take up my bow and arrow and shoot straight into the heart of that darkness.
To shatter it with the brilliance of truth.
Exploding it into a million pieces of stardust.
I thought fear was my enemy.
But it was my soul telling me.
"You can do this."
"You have it within you to move mountains with your loving heart, to shake the earth with your pounding feet in the dance of joy, to fill all the oceans with your tears of vulnerability and truth.
You have it in you to be everything you've been searching for all along.
I am still here.
I have always been here.
I always will be.
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